First Day of School Jitters

After a busy but fun weekend, wherein our procrastinating Heroine actually did do some plotwork on the novel (yay!) and spent a lovely Mother's Day with extended family, today was my last day off before I start training for the new job. I started the day with a dentist appointment and it steadily improved from there: lunch with my Oldest Bestest Friend, a walk in China Camp and hangout time with another dear friend (during which much deep and interesting conversation was had), and a nice chunk of pleasant and non-frantic time with the boys before bedtime. Now I'm using blogging as a procrastinatory device instead of trying to plan for Girlz Gamin' night tomorrow.

I have to admit, today I've been having a little bit of the "first day of school" jitters. I'm not so much worried about how I'll handle the training, or about my ability to do the job (I'm sure that kind of self-doubt/insecurity will come later, as a natural outgrowth of starting something new, but I know enough now to just ride it out and not let it conquer me). No, what I'm finally starting to jitter about is the fluffier, social anxiety stuff like "will anyone talk to me? Will they be nice to me? Will I make any friends? Where will I sit? Who will I eat lunch with? Will I remember how to get to the kitchen or the bathroom?" It seems a little silly, I know, to be caught up in the same feelings I had when I was a freshman in high school (or college, or grad school for that matter). But at least I'm aware of it for what it is, and able to poke gentle fun at myself.

So now I think I'll go pick out my outfit and go to bed so I can get plenty of sleep for my big first day.