Time Shift

Divorced from my usual daily routine of wrangle-work-wrangle-chores/socialize/veg/create, the way I move through time during the day is already beginning its shift into home-mama mode, even just over this last couple of days I've been off work and hanging out at home. I remember this home-mama mode from when Eli was little, the way that time could stretch out soooo sloooooooooowly, when there was no particular order to the day (or at least, priorities were fluid and routine hadn't been established so I would wind up doing whatever caught my attention first) and each endeavor seemed to last forever; or alternately, the way that time could just *poof* away, frittered in bits and pieces on such a myriad of little things that I'd suddenly look up and think "how did it get to be afternoon already?" and feel like I had nothing to show for whatever I had been doing (which half the time I couldn't even really remember anyway). I'm beginning to slough off agendas and projects (or at least the desire/motivation to follow through on them).

Today after getting Eli off to school I spent most of my day puttering and frittering, doing things like dishes and picking up around the house for the cleaners, brushing the dog (she's still blowing her winter coat), chatting on IM, and reading blogs. I actually did convince myself to go out to the garage and do some more painting for a couple hours, which is the one thing I *did* plan/want to accomplish today. I didn't finish, but then I didn't find myself particularly motivated to, so what the hell. I did enjoy it, and I know that's what counts. Assuming I get one more day sans-bebe, I will finish them tomorrow, I think. I'm pretty close: out of the 4 paintings I've planned, 1 is completely finished, 1 is nearly finished, and two are half finished. I'd say there's about 2-3 hours more of painting left (depending on how obsessive I get). We'll see. Motivation is fickle these days (I suspect this has much to do with still not getting good sleep), and I'm sure it will become even more so in days to come.

Ok given that motivation is low now, I think it's time to go to bed early...I'm still hoping to kick this stupid head cold thing (and haven't yet...grr).